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For the past few days, I've woken up with a head ache. It makes for an enjoyable start.

The weather up in here has been crappy for the past few days, it's enough to make me be sad and depressed and contemplate cookies. This has been one of the first years where I can honestly say the weather has gotten to me. When I was at Fred Meyer the cashier asked me where my coat was. I told her it wasn't needed. She replied with a mm, hmm. What I wanted to shout was "I'm a 30 year old adult and I can dress myself!" Hmm, maybe she should learn to keep her comments to herself? For the love of god, stop raining and give me some fucking sun!

I went to a Weight Watchers meeting, the second one since I've joined. When I was weighing in the guy made a comment about be giving up on weight loss for the week because I had my coffee on the counter. A tall non fat latte is worth 2 points. Um, I also had wet hair, all my clothes on, and had eaten breakfast. Then he got all excited because I had lost 5lbs since my last weigh in. But in my calculations it's close to 12 since I joined. I went to the meeting because I realized it was going to start soon and I was close by, I thought maybe it would help with my morning slump. um, not to much. But they gave out some recipes with mushrooms.

Oh, and the Starbucks I went to didn't have the paper I wanted, but I was able to find my crosswords!

Adding my cake batter ice cream and my period to the mix, I only lost a pound this week. But, a pound is still a pound less than before.

I bought a new wallet, it's made by Hobo International. I've seen a couple of people with it and I think it's brilliant. It's a wallet\clutch thing in a cantaloupe color... rightly called melon. Since I couldn't find any awesome pictures that would work with me and not sure where the camera is at the moment, you can see it here.

So this whole Weight Watchers thing is really easy for me, as of now. Years back when I had just come off of Paxil, something I was consuming was making me sick. My stomach was a mess for year or so. I had some allergy tests done and they came up with me being allergic to 4 things that were constantly in my diet. A few years later my naturopath tested me for food allergies via blood and come up with nothing. So I started to eat everything again. The stomach issues returned. I have a weird intolerance to soy proteins. So anyway, that whole entire time, I kept a really decent food journal of what I ate. Some of the time I was doing really good, the other times I cringed when I recorded my food intake. But the truth is, for me this works. I'm not one of those people who can lie to myself all that easily. Sure I look in the mirror and think to myself I don't look as fat as I am. But I know that when I shop I have to look for xls and 16s and that I have to really shimmy through tight spaces. (I want to be back at the 170 I was at before I gained all the weight from Paxil.) The Weight Watchers eTools work because now I can enter stuff into a computer and it figures stuff out for me. All I need from any packaged foods I eat are the calories, the fat and the fiber. Enter it in and be on my way....

I am not one of those fat people who uses the flex plan so I can eat 3 cupcakes in one day.

So far I'm down 3 pounds.

Go me. I bought the wallet to reward myself for finally figuring out that maybe I really do need help to lose weight and that maybe joining a gym again and still eating improperly just won't cut it this time. I'll reward myself when I lose my first 10% with a new tattoo.

Um, as of May 3, 2008, I am no longer using half and half in my coffee.

Sorry Dude.

I figured out that I use to use up about 8 WW points a day on just half and half for my multiple cups of coffee. I knew it was bad, but not that bad. Crap.

Um, I think this means no more white russians. (stab stab, whimper whimper)

The Dude would be sad.